I feel absolutely horrible right now. I miss him so badly. And what's worse is the fact that there is nothing I can do to change this. I will probably look back on this in a while and think of how stupid I was being. I …

He said no. And very curtly, I might add. I wasn't surprised, but I am really sad about it. And to make matters worse, I ate half a box of Wheat Thins in a moment of weakness. At least they were the fat free kind? Well,…